Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1
withers away @ 8:41 pm
how i'm still slacking... i dunno wad to do to make myself not slack, bcoz i dun even noe why i'm slacking... diz has nv happened to me b4.. n i'm actually slacking for wad? for my os... oh how fun diz muz b... am i giving up my studies or am i giving up myself... i'm sort of sick of my life, studying like no one's business.. i dun get the pt... i dun see y.. i really tink i'm doing diz for nthg.. i dunno wad am i doing.. i'm sick n tired of my life, n sick n tired of myself.
withers away @ 11:48 pm
eh today's chem prac was the best out of all the pracs... i tot it was the most normal prac out of the 3... sighz... budden once i tink abt my os i wanna die... havent even do anything yet... den keep comforting myself tt i can make it if i study... but i'm not studying!! *shocked... faints* but anyway, i juz hope i can make it... i will try to work hard, but i'm already worn out frm midyrs n prelims... i tink i really did wad the teachers told us not to do: to b tired of exams.. but i really am... not tt i tink i'm well prepared.. it's the totally opp.. but i juz dun find the motivation to study.. i can't get it frm me, i can't get it frm my frenz, i can get it frm nowhere...
withers away @ 11:01 pm
oh well... today's phy prac was ok... not the best of the pracs to have, but not tt bad oso... budden the modification qn n the graph would b abt gone... modification i wrote crap for it... graph got a wrong shape -___- so... erm... nvm... anyway i juz hope chem prac would b ok... n i'm still slacking fyi... havent exactly started revision haha anyway i got nthg much to tok abt too... not too many things happen recently... eh... hope nthg much happens oso... if not ah...
withers away @ 1:25 pm
it's a long time ever since i last blogged... feel horrible too... hiya... kenneth v good... finish studying ss n geog liao... do all the science mcq in the tys liao.... me leh?? havent even finish one chapt of ss... shi bai.... went to so many schs open house... went to aj, vj, hc, rj, n yesterday, nj b4 going for diz boring n hungry grad ceremony... no one was concentrating loh... all they did were speeches n more speeches... the open houses were quite nice lah... though intimidated by some... hc had the best feeling... coz we noe the place quite well liao... so feel v at home... den hito brought us all around n "displayed" cyn to everyone.. haha.. hiya actually coz he's proud of her lah...
juz read his blog lah... hiya... actually miss lim is always lidat... but i tink peishan shld go n tell her abt it... like our batch oso went to tell miss lim not to scold too much n cause us to haf low morale mah... actually of coz we r not tt bad... juz tt when she's angry, we become like sai... wah... lidat next yr go hc choir (if i ever make it) den sure kena her scolding again liao... *faints* muz learn not to b too affected by her altho i always end up crying... sighz
say so much oso dunno whether can get into hc anot... altho i keep saying i'm freakin out for os, i'm not loh... see wad kind of revision haf i done for os... almost the whole sec 4 ss syllabus is left unstudied... n i've never in my whole life studied for them... topics like good governance n venice... sec 3 topics r still ok... juz need to revise n read thru i tink shld b fine... geog still need to knock industry into my head, tho i dun tink i'll do it... all throughout i've been working on argi loh... den env management muz read... coz i'll most likely do tt.. den sciences... chem is ok.. juz need to make sure i use correct terms n phrase properly.. in other words, i hafta take note of my eng... phy.. i juz dunno ware to start studying or revising frm.... but anyway i've scored ok... so... bio is the worst... i hafta make sure both my chem n bio gets A1... i'm not placing much hope on jap... i dun dare to... so for bio i muz muz muz studying for topics like transport, repro, homeostatis n stuff lidat... there's juz too many concepts tt i need to reinforce... dunno how to survive... maths i'm not exactly going to care abt them... i've done enuf papers to get the practice i need... mebbe a few days b4 the exam spend a couple of hours to read thru the mistakes i've made, look at funny-looking qns n tt's all i'm going to do... eng... i seem to haf given up hope on it.... i'm placing all my eggs in HCL... hopefully i didnt make the wrong choice... problem is i havent started studying for it... i've learnt my lesson... i'll start studying sec 4 syllabus first... as for jap... i dunno... i'll figure something out later... altho there's not much of a later to talk about...
i tink i wrote enuf... nearly 1.30 liao... hafta go n plan my study schedule n start work right away...
withers away @ 9:14 pm
i feel like crying... dun ask me why... i'm depressed.. not bcoz of bio prac... mood swing lah k... juz minutes ago i was tokin to beat n i was ok loh... now i juz feel terrible... i feel v xin ku... no one can help me... i noe no one can.... bcoz it's me.. not anyone else but me.
withers away @ 11:01 pm
oh well... now i'm doing eng.. v boring.. budden somehow got the xing zhi to do it... anywayz.. i studied bio prac today lah... actually not in the mood for os lehz... budden i cant do anything else wad... n our SAT test ah... oso dunno take when.. hiya v sick liao lah... i'm living everyday w/o noeing wad to do all the time... i'm juz finding stuff to do...n not tt i haf nothing to do loh... i juz haf too much... oh my.. actually i noe no use grumbling lah... budden... i juz lazy to do anything else.. not tt i dun haf the time.. mebbe i haf juz given up... oh well wadeva... anyway gotta go n do my eng liao :)
withers away @ 11:08 pm
u noe... cyn now den find out tt bio prac is diz tues-___-.. if i didnt tell her she probably wun remem at all... oh my.. tml going to aj n vj open hse... hiya dunno wad to wear... anyway tt's not the pt...
anyway... i feel v terrible now dunno why... juz feel terrible.. mebbe bcoz i couldnt do the mgs amaths paper 1 but i juz feel like the hei se liu ding song argh... hiya i dunno lah i poot lah k.. oh nvm... i tink diz syndrome will b over unless my os.... choy choy choy... touch wood... if not i will haf post-exam-blues... X_____X
i dun even noe if i'm doing the right thing now, finishing prelim papers of other schs n not even studying properly... i'm v not on task loh... all the scheduling has gone to waste.. i really dunno wad to do now... someone help
withers away @ 10:24 pm
oh well i'm back... supposed to do chem papers for tml.. realized tt i've done everything except for mgs n ri paper 2... maths... i've done everything for emaths.. amaths left mgs one... today juz get... sighz.... i'm supposed to b quite prepared rite... actually wad i'm doing now is juz for my L1R5 u realize... those subj tt i'm really bad at.. i've not even smelled them... like phy.. n those tt need a lot of studying like bio.. oh my... den tml juz go for one period of chem....
nowadays i haf lotsa mood swings loh... hiya... pre-exam-mooding-syndrome... i realized tt... i tend to get v sad n feel like being left alone... oh well... nvm... it will b over soon... oh mebbe too soon...
going to do more quizzes! to perk my sleeping mind.... *i still need to do chem papers!*
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wad drink is diz?
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withers away @ 9:32 pm
oh my.. juz a wk more to os prac... n i'm not even 1 out of 100th ready... i havent started any form of studying unless u count doing other sch's prelim papers as revision... i'm starting to get the pre-exam-freaking-out syndrome.. oh my, i even coined a name for it... well anyway.. but besides letting myself freak out i dun tink there's anything for me to do.. but i need to freak myself out b4 i get enuf stress to start any studying so.... mebbe freaking out is good for me?? eh... mebbe for my mentality... but not my health... it's deteriorating like it was when i had my pre-prelim-freaking-out syndrome... i couldnt even finish my breakfast then... n today i've been sneezing n sniffing... i tink mebbe lao gong passed her germs to me liao... pre-exam period is when my already-weak immunity system malfunctions... so... i get attacked by bacteria n viruses much more easily... oh well.. tt's the bad part abt freaking out... but i guess mebbe it does more good than harm?? juz make sure it doesnt get out of hand loh... if not? haha nvm... gotta do my maths... later still need to do bio...
withers away @ 10:33 pm
the one abt lamentations is true loh i guess.. on my previous post... eh... actually doing chem now lah... got chem lessons tml... no one online to tok to me:( dunno whether kenneth manage to find the ans scheme anot.. hmmm dun feel v good today dunno why.. feeling blue... going to do more quizzes:)
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i juz cant get enuf of quizzes
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i tink diz is quite enuf... haha.. i tink i juz flooded the pg
withers away @ 9:32 pm
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Which book of the Bible are you?
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oh i'm like spring ah?? eh... u all tink leh?
withers away @ 10:05 pm
oh my finally it's fri yea... *collapses in fatigue* but there r so many prelim papers to do tt the papers cant even fit into one file.. i had to sort them out into two... *imagines the amt of workload n faints* n next wk i need to go back every single day sighz... i'm certain tt i wun b able to finish studying for os man... it's a dream... so i hafta plan my time such tt i haf enuf time for everything n dun start to flunk any exam... hiya i tink i now short circuited liao.. do amaths do until dunno how to do.. hiya nvm lah... now i sorta slacking loh.. anyway not much of a brain left... so.. nvm... gtg..
withers away @ 4:28 pm
finally today is going to b over.. but today oso haf alot of stuff to finish leh.. sighz... n next wk our study leave like no study leave lidat loh... hiya nvm lah.. wad to do?
den juz now i realize that the email tt i send to kenneth is still in my outbox!! wah lao... no wonder yesterday i check den no reply lah... budden the email sys oso got bit xiao one... got msg yesterday den dunno how to send.. argh.. sometimes coms make me mad... n ah... his results ah... ah nvm... wang chen mo ji...
wonder wad other subj need me to go back to sch for lessons one.. i tell u sure cannot finish studying subj like bio one... confirm liao.. diz whole wk i didnt do any studying at all loh... how how how?!?!!
n ah... juz now eat lunch wif cyn n hito.. cyn say tt his maths got abt 20-30marks gone liao... obviously he would b affected budden he appeared not lah... hiya he shld b ok lah hor?
anyway gotta go now... need to do lots of papers ne.. X________X
withers away @ 9:10 pm
oh sheesh... how?? today juz had os jap oral... sighz.. the passage was so difficult loh... so many words nv see b4... sighz... n got so much hwk loh... i couldnt even find time to go online loh... today hafta do one zuo wen, one ying yong wen, one phy paper, one maths paper.. u tell me ware got time to finish?? in the end i'll juz heck loh... n i hafta go back for chem lessons next wk sobz... actually i dun really wanna go.. budden nvm lah... go den go loh... if not whole day at home i tink i will die... haha... prob is rite... there r two lessons.. one on tues, one on fri... the one on tues is at 0925 to 1050... den at 1415 got rehearsal for grad ceremony... argh... den frm 1050 to 1415 i do wad?? got 3h leh... den go home rite.. i only haf 2h... den 1h taken for eating... den left 1h... so?? i do wad?? oso dunno.. den mite as well stay in sch loh... den do maths?? haha... can lah actually... or i do papers loh... or do tian xie han zi the assessment bk... haha... only do half of it... yea ok settled.. den lunch i settle myself loh.. if not? see if i can grab anyone to eat lunch wif moi... sobz.. haha.. den on fri time slot quite funny... coz is 1305 to 1405... dunno when to eat lunch... hiya nvm lah... that day den decide loh.. dunno wad other subj i need to come back.. EL everyone need to come back for one lesson... HCL i dun need to come back.. the rest dunno lah... ok nvm gtg.. so many hwk to do...
withers away @ 9:47 pm
actually nthg much happened lah... it's mel bdae today! happy bdae!! but dunno wad to get for her... all the tok abt prelims n post prelims blues haf kept me occupied... now i doing organic chem dws... i died for my organic chem qn during prelims loh.. so pathetic k... my essay qns only got 9.. how i got 69% for chem i oso dunno... tink it's quite miraculous.. actually only 10+ ppl frm my class got As for chem loh...
oh mb got jay's cd liao!!!! i want to listen.. i actually like his luv songs alot.. realized tt ... haha... stuff like qing tian, an jing, kai bu liao kou... tao zhe's one oso.. i really like his ji mo de ji jie... v ping2 jing4... budden v meaningful.... like his hei se liu ding oso... v rarely i really like to listen to such songs... haha... sounds exactly like me when i'm sick n tired of everything tt's going on ard me..... got his jing xuan ji liao... i want jay's one!!! wonder when is he going to haf one... going to get stef sun's one soon... altho i tink they didnt include enuf songs... well who else one shld i get??
anyway i really tink i can't finish studying... stuff like el, maths, amaths, chem, shld b able to finish... budden like hcl... bio... phy.. jap... got loads of prob trying to finish them up... i mean i dun even noe ware to start... ss n geog still can lah... ss i better study finish.. if not v scary... geog still can crap lah.. altho i heard frm cyn frm hito tt os egeog is all frm the txtbk... den i better finish mugging it.. i nv finish mugging one loh.... it's always i crap one... coz like diz yr's one... tok abt wad... how do s'pore ensure safe potable water... like can b found in the txtbk lidat... teacher later say can find in sgp... but i nv even touch it loh.. so i crapped.. n got quite high marks:D
anyway i tink i better go n do my dws... i dun wanna get B3 for chem again:)
withers away @ 8:33 pm
i got 9 pts loh... chem got 69 loh.... :'(.. i shall go n cry later... hiya actually i was going to cry in the audi liao budden gotta ren3 loh... actually is coz of all careless mistakes lah... budden nvm.... if i dun b careless in os getting 6 pts shldnt b a prob.. :)
well but i really dunno how to start studying... esp for phy.. i haf the textbk in front of me now, but i dunno ware to start n wad to do... how?? n we haf so many schs prelim papers to do when i only found out today tt current reverses itself in a d.c. generator!?! so if lidat how i do papers when my theory is... ok nvm... i really dunno wad to do wif myself loh.... well actually i'm one of the ppl who get quite high L1R5 liao loh... quite a no. of my classmates haf 7 or 8 but good thing is they wanna go rj.. so good... less competition... n mb still say she wanna kill everyone else in other schs so tt only ny ppl can go hc... so no competition haha... but now she's concerned abt wad to put as her 3rd choice, wif her L1R5 at 11... neither here nor there, in the middle of nowhere..
now cyn n i confirmed can go hc, if we take LEP even more confirm loh... i really hope can get mb in too... dun wanna leave her alone floating someware... the rest ah... oso dunno how... el say mebbe she go pioneer jc... coz near her hse... sighz... how? dunno...
withers away @ 9:19 pm
well i'm almost secured a place in hc! a1 for hcl, a1 for emaths, a1 for comb humans, a1 for bio... i got 68.7 for phy argh!!!!!! wonder if the teacher marked anything wrongly *prays hard*... if i get a1 for chem too... i'll get 7 pts!:D
well looks like i worried for nthg.. juz tt i believe only cyn, me n probably lao gong can go hc liao... the rest ah.... el is like... c5, c6, d7... sighz... mel not v aware budden not tt good oso... beat collected 2 to 6... erm... so... oh no... but i believe wif our os marks.. we can make it loh... it's juz the first 3 mths sobzzz... nvm... but i really think i wun get tt good L1R5 if i dun start studying proper.. but i really dun seem to find the time... we haf sch all the way until os prac... n when os prac start we hafta go for jap lessons even tho we dun haf sch... diz is absolutely stupid coz my whole day is gone lidat... only left the nite... unless i wake up at 6 everyday to study loh... if not sure no time one... n the nite will b spent studying for the prac the next day loh... so how?? sure die... n diz is 2 wks b4 the os loh... ware do i find the time to pia my stuff?? i tink in the end i'll wake up at ard 7 to study leh.. shit lah... nvm loh den i sleep on the mrt loh wad to do?? coz by the looks of it i may haf even probs trying to finish studying for os, let alone consolidating all my facts... wad the heck... so how?? i'm sure i can finish amaths, since i'm halfway thru my secret weapon.. but the rest of the subj as bio... i'm really afraid tt i can't make the same miracle i made for prelims loh... but u muz noe tt all my a1s r like 75, 76 kind of thing loh.. v dangerous one... n dun forget, the teachers round up our marks even if we get .1... so?? n my comb humans is super miraculous loh... i nv even get b3 b4 den now i get a1... wow man... bio oso.. nv get a2 b4... den now get a1... but i'm really scared tt my chem get a shit thing.. coz i realized tt i really didnt score v well at all... so.. how?? oso cannot do a thing lah..
mb now trying to get marks out loh for eng... den she can haf hope of going hc together wif me:P... i want her to go lah.... *tugs at her sleeves*
but anyway gotta do work now n fix my chatterbox... see ya:)